Second Chances

Sometimes the two months that I have been here feels like forever and I can't even think of the other 10 still yet to be spent. Part of me is ready to come home part of me is just ready for something else.

To pass the time I have started learning Korean, not much just important phrases that will get me through the day. Surprisingly I found it on Youtube! Everything is on that site. I am hoping that with more knowledge of the language my culture shock will not be as strong.

I spent the weekend at home contemplating what steps I want to take in my life after I leave here. It's funny how after graduation you thing you have it all figured out and then once you get out there you realize you know little to nothing. I am realizing now God is giving me a second chance. I remember a sermon Pastor Toni once gave comparing God to a Silversmith and how in the last stage of purification of "the silver" the heat is turned up to bring to the surface those impurities that were not visible to the naked eye or hidden by the more obvious.

When I was living in Atlanta I thought I knew what needed to change and in what direction I was or wasn't going . I thought I knew what needed adding or subtracting in my life/environment/heart/mindset/thoughts/prayers. But the truth is when you move to a whole nother country and those same issues follow, it's not them - it's you. It's me.

God is giving me a second chance to become the woman He created me to be. To let go of some things/people/thoughts/habits/false hopes/comfort zones and live the life He created me for and for me. And for that I am grateful. This is my 70 x 7 and I'm going to take it.